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is the place i like to call home. SOMETIMES. Take today for example. The weather is amazing, probably the hottest I have seen it, at 31 degrees with sun and everything... that is pretty hot! I was sat outside quite happy doing my work and just got TOO hot, and that is rare for me, I can withstand heat.. just not the cold, but I refused to a place with cool air emitting from a place called an air conditioner and decided to watch the England - Germany game. BAD IDEA. I was quite intent to do my work after the match, hoping that I would feel a little better about myself when I have seen England try against Germany, but they have just lost catastrophically. AND the referee and his linesmen are retarded. As in fully blind. They must be to not think that was a goal. And now as I sit here at the computor typing this blog, I feel that my lack of doing work is NOT going to better itself for a while... Oh what to do... I might order food... that would satisy my hunger and encourage me to work... is Mammas open? OK,, now I am just wasting time... but yes. I will get a pizza.

that boyy i talk about.

He texts me most days,, and always there are kisses on the end of the text. I get to cuddle up next to him in his bed when we watch a film and he is going to come and see me while I am here. He always asks me how I am and whether my placement is going well. That shows he cares, and that is what matters.

life makes me happy sometimes

At the moment, life is treating me well. I touch wood in the hope that it is because I am carrying things out to the letter and doing everything properly and I am running to a schedule. I think that is what I needed, a schedule. Placement is actually helping me, I have my week back, and my times which I had at home, which mean I can take my tablets on time, and so I don't feel so damn tired all the time, and I defintely haven't been having those darned absences as frequently. Again I touch the wood on my desk, just out sheer terror that sod's law will inhibit some unruly absence and really make me feel quite sad. I have even managed to get back into reading which has made me particularly happy, especially as the summer is due to start.

FOUR WEEKS TO GO...gosh I'm excited.

Just a Note...

I really enjoy my last post... it is a proper downer on all things happy, and now I look back on how things spanned out, pretty much tells the truth about everything. Trust me when I say that

exaggeration is never NOT worth it.

It is like prerequisite as to the layout of things ahead. For example... although I had an acceptable day the next day with Grace, the evening wasn't so great as I fell out with one of my closest friends Charlie. Summer Ball was then to follow and because of the sheer awkwardness between Charlie and I, I was shunted from the group for the day and spent the whole day wallowing in my own self pity. That is to say, it turns out I managed to spend the day with three of the greatest people I might ever manage to meet: Cassie, Grace and Ella. The week which was to follow however made me feel like shit because I missed Charlie and was worried about what happen upon her return from Spain. However, there were some good factors to the week... my mum came down and I managed to spend the week with my friends being myself still, just without Charlie, which although I admit it was wierd, it helped me to see her side of the whole situation. However, when she did come back I went into shutdown and couldn't really deal with anything so when she SUMMONED me to sort the matter out, I nearly shat my pants. I was so nervous, but thankfully managed to keep my temper and not vent my anger long enough to have the matter sorted out in time to spend the last week of university with her and all the rest of my close friends.

EPIC,, I know