Time and Time Again.

I mess up. A lot of the time. I started to drink again, because I enjoy it. And I have the right to do things I enjoy. HOWEVER. I have recently drank WAY too much, and ended up being in situations I wish I wasn't in. I feel so bad for making my friends experience these times along with me, but I'll tell you what, I love them so much for it. Like, so much. Annabelle - a true super star, and I know she'll be there for me no matter what. Kate - a person who reminds me a bit of myself. And I love her for that. I can learn from her, and help her on her way to improving her own lifestyle. And mine. And although I've recently been let down by Kat - she also reminds me of myself. She made a mistake, alright a pretty huge one, but still, taking a leaf from Annabelle's book, I am trying to be there for her as much as I can. It's just hard when I am not really comfortable with liars. 'Liar' is a pretty strong word and probably makes me a hypocrite, especially in the eyes of some other friends, but seriously, I never lie to intentionally hurt someone. Or base a friendship on lies. Still confused. But I suppose life is about learning from the mistakes of others, as well as yourself? It's just a shame that such mistakes hurt the people I love, and other people's mistakes hurt me.