Vacation in a vacation.

We went to Chicago last week and stayed for a lot of days. It was awesome :) there was a beach there! An inner city beach! Weird. I just was overwhelmed. And we went to an awesome little spray park and I saw the bean. Possibly my first sight see, and maybe my last, but I enjoyed it and there was water. Happy chappy. Oh beach. I love the beach. Then it was independence day almost as soon as we returned and we went to another lake to swim in. But this lake was more like the lakes I see. But it was a neighbourhood owned lake. OBVIOUSLY. Crazy crazy. These Americans do like to splash around. And then I got eaten alive by bugs and watched a film. All is well.

I miss home.

One week and I miss home. This is the norm and usually happens this way, but it's just not great when I am on holiday and a lot of the things I do or that happen remind me of home. I miss a different person each day and recently it has been people I don't expect to be missing. Not that I don't love them, because I definitely do, it's just that they're people who either have annoyed me recently or I don't usually miss them, regardless of how much I love them. Today: mum and dad. Weird. I miss them so much. I have spoken to mum today but I just miss her because she has her ways which no one else has. And I haven't spoken to my dad in a week. It just feels longer because he hasn't text me and I am across the world from him. I think when I am reminded of them in a bad way it makes it worse. Maybe that's why. Who knew my dad had a personality twin.

I like to be in America!

I have been here for four days and I already love it. Church is awesome and I met an extremely nice young boy there. If only I was around for more than five weeks and we could get to know each other better! Maybe 5 weeks will give me time. Four days is not exactly a lot of time to have gone by and me to have received an invite out from said handsome fellow. The rest of the surrounding area is equally as beautiful and of course Tariq, Audrey and Isabella are a delight, and a pleasure to know. I am so blessed to be a part of their family for a short while.

May, oh May, another month has gone.

So in the past month I have completed the writing of my final three essays, meaning that I have written another 9,125 words towards my degree. It took a great effort on my part, requiring much motivation from various sources, mainly awesome friends, and they supply it in the form of banter, music or quality time. This is in relation to mainly one friend in particular, whom I have been lucky enough to have several dance parties with. Although these dance parties were occasionally in the library, having finished our work, we have now extended into the realm of 'cool' and dance around her living room, still not caring if anyone is watching. We have mainly Carly Rae Jepsen and Shakira to thank for these glorious affairs. Another crazy thing - hospital... again. Oh well, God was with me through that, and if anything it has strengthened my relationship with Him and increased my trust in Him. He is a complete boss at life. I have been hanging out with my glorious friends several times, and having an all round BRILL time. Because I CAN. London and sun. Thankyou Jesus. My hair has decresed by approximately half. But that still makes it shoulder length. I am just buzzing from my glorious sunshine times.

Title: TOP LAD

I have just been dubbed a 'Top Lad' by one of my best friends, and I do believe that this is hilarious, and an excellent judgement on his part, particularly as I am a girl. Here is Urban Dictionary's Definition, and although it is taken out of context this time round, as I have been 'bequeathed this title' for different reasons, I believe this to be an adequate description. A lad is a (male) who specialises in creating and distributing exquisite banter. Though most lads are youngish (late teens and early twenties) age is not a defining characteristic and you will find both young lads and old lads. Some special skills of lads include, but are not limited to the following: - Binning Pints - Exposing genitalia and getting naked in public places - Throwing up after copious alcohol consumption - Spousal Abuse - Getting kicked out of pubs/nightclubs for being overly offensive Excelling in all areas will earn a lad the title of "top lad". There is no higher praise that can be bequeathed upon an individual I was bequeathed this honour for taking part in boyish activities, and never letting my 'girly' become apparent when playing football. I am also known for not turning down 'boy time' or turning away from a rolling ball. I'm the one in combats. Obviously.

Ambition 1: COMPLETE

My personal aim for the past few months has been completed. I can complete a Rubik's Cube. Yes, I know, I'm awesome. Here is a video of me doing it. Slowly I admit, but I fully intend to improve my speed AS SOON as is humanly possible.

Mission: Statement

I hereby declare that I will complete every task I set out to achieve. Goals are like stones on a path, and they are not hard to bypass, or cross, so I intend to see to it that all my goals are completed to my own satisfaction. For it is my own satisfaction which is important. As long as I am happy, then we are fine. I am a lively character, and find joy in activity, and boredom in stillness. Not stillness as in peace, but stillness as in doing nothing. Therefore, when I see a stone on a path, it is more than likely that I will kick it. There is a particular journey I love to take when I am at home in Manchester, from my Aunt's house to my own home, and is about a two minute, but there is ALWAYS a stone in the path at the start. And I always make sure I am kicking that stone until I get to my house, even though I have to cross a main road. I ensure the safety of the stone, and if it gets sidetracked, I will shuffle it into the kerb and keep it there until I can carry on. That stone will be all my goals in future. Complete it to the best of your ability, and nurture it, don't worry about how long it takes, because YOU know how long the journey takes, and it is a good path. And the path laid out for my future is the best one. It has been laid out by my heavenly Father, and He knows that I am going to love nurturing and fumbling over every little stone on that path, as much as I enjoy the path, and the trees which run along either side, welcoming me in for a climb every now and then, when the stones become a little heavy. THIS IS MY PATH, AND I THANK GOD FOR WHERE IT WILL TAKE ME NEXT.

Change for the better?

I have had a massive change in my situation now. I am no longer going to placement, because of my 'health'. Now to me, my health is perfectly fine. But whatever. My family and friends are behind me and supporting my decision to stop because of the stupid school, and of I had a penny for the amount of times I have heard the words 'sometimes things happen for a reason, even if it is not clear what that reason is right now' i would be incredibly rich. But they are completely right. All the people who have said that to me, all love me, and I respect their opinion so much, it is barely real. I respect their opinion more than I respect my own. Because my own is distorted by upset, disappointment, anger and confusion. \but thanks to the support of my friends, I have made a decision which is DEFINITELY for the better.

Half Term

It is half term and I am having the time of my life. I need to do my assessment file but that's OK, I have it sorted. And lesson plans. I wanted to meet up with my friends, but boo them, they all have too much work to do. Oh if ONLY they knew. I am very busy too, I just am allowed a break occasionally. Because that is what I choose to do with my life. If they have issues with that, then they should take it up with Michael Gove. I hope they don't though, because I totally love having holidays, BECAUSE WE BLOODY WELL DESRVE THEM. We work hard as teachers. And everyday with thirty kids is tiring. TRUST ME.

Placement.

I am due a Mid Block Review. Again. I mean, it has probably been a little under a year since my last one, but, the prospect of another one drives me to insanity. I'm nervous. And today I have lots of work to do. And I have made a video about chapel. Poor student award. Good Christian. I love God, and that's what counts. Placement is going well though, I will keep you updated on the mid block review front. Fingers crossed all those that care for my future.