Sometimes, I pray.

Sometimes I get so angry I can't even cope with it. It's such a strong emotion inside of me that I either hold it in until later or let it out in a way that is probably unhealthy. This usually means hitting something or shouting at someone I love, or worse building up a hatred for someone and not telling them about it. It pains me inside, it physically hurts me, and so sometimes I have to let the pain out, either onto someone else (emotionally) or onto myself. 

So I pray.

Sometimes, there's a wall inside of me that stops me from doing the things that I love to do, and it takes a hold of me. It takes me to a dark place where I don't want to be, a dark place from my past. A dark place before I changed. 

So I pray.

Sometimes, I just don't really eat for a day or two, because I'm not hungry. I get so angry at myself for not being hungry that I get upset. Then I can't eat. 

So I pray.

Sometimes I take my feelings out on the people I love, and only afterwards I feel like I've hurt them and pained them. 

So I pray.

Sometimes everything is awesome.

Sometimes everything is beautiful.

Sometimes my joy is untouchable. 

Sometimes my happiness is glorious.

So I pray.